Why now?

Every year, my church challenges us to pick a word that will set the tone for and carry us through the new year. As I was praying about the word God wanted to define for 2020, I heard Him tell me He wants me to dream again. Being a dreamer is a big part of who I am. Dreaming up big ideas, future plans, businesses I may or may not ever pull the trigger on, and trips I can’t wait to take is what I love to do. Some of my dreams are so big that you would think I’m idealistic, but I think faith fans the flame for my my biggest desires.

Flashback a couple of years ago, I would say 2018 was a dream year for me. My dad gave his life to Christ (inset praise hands emoji), I went on a life-changing trip to Israel, and I started to see my business take off in a way I never imagined. All of that almost overshadowed the disappointment I experienced later that year. You know that feeling you get when things just do not turn out the way you planned? It’s a huge blow to your spirit and it was to mine, so I figured that no dreaming = no disappointment.

Looking back, I can’t believe I stopped doing one of the things I was created to do. 2019 was full of a couple of great, unexpected life changes. I transitioned into my dream job of getting to lead and coach a team of people who do something I love! Change is fun and exciting, but it also has a way of throwing you for a loop - especially when you take on more responsibility than you think you are ready for. Anxiety is not how I would have chosen to write my story for 2019, and even though it didn’t fill the entire year, I still allowed it to steal more of my joy than I imagined.

So going into 2020, I knew this year had to be different. This is a dream year, my dream year. And man, I cannot wait to tell you guys more about the dreams I have for this year and cannot wait to celebrate with you when some of my biggest dreams come to life! You are actually helping me achieve one of them right now. Starting a blog has been a dream of mine for almost 7 years, so it’s pretty special to me that it’s finally happening.

Why now? Honestly, timing is a really weird thing I may never fully understand. For the last year and a half, I’ve been trying to find the time and the brain space to dedicate to launching and maintaining my blog, and it just never seemed right. Then quarantine has happened and it has given me the space to dream again and I realized the time I have now is the best gift.

I know 2020 is already a year that none.of.us.had.planned. Right now I should be in Mexico sipping a margarita and celebrating all the accomplishments of the best team ever, but instead but I’m typing these words from a small corner in my house. There are people who have lost way more than I have, and my heart truly breaks for everyone. But my prayer is that a fire will be ignited in you to do one thing that brings out the best version of yourself and makes you come to life, I promise you will thank me later!

Taking the plunge to share my thoughts and heart with the world is scary because it leaves me exposed. Yet I believe our dreams are on the other side of that leap of faith we’re afraid to take. Next week I will be turning a year older and I’m more excited than ever to use my gifts to help people through my words. I hope you leave here with a fire in your soul to chase after the purpose you have been given.

All my love,

-Tasha